I do not know what is happening on me. 

I just feel depressed every single night. 

And I hate this fucking feeling! 

A week ago, one of my buddy, 

She's came all over from Kuala Lumpur to Kampar.

Actually, there's quite long time I did not meet her.

Since she coming for me, then I just welcome her.

Her arrival to my place does makes my life brighter.

At least, when she is here, I am not so depressed like usual.

You know what, she's a psychological diploma graduate. 

So, I took her for a walk.

We went to the one of the Kampar's restaurant

called  "Kam Ling"

for its' famous dish Curry Chicken Bun 

 

After that, we shopping in Jusco Ipoh for a moment.

Then, I took her for dinner in Kampar 

and introduce her some friends of mine.

Of course, we're having an enjoyable dinner, 

the whole process of dinner are full of chats and laughters.

However, when we reached my hostel, she told me,

"The way I'm interacting with my friends is different and I looked uneasy" 

I shocked that she able to look through my minds 

by just observing my behaviour on dinner table. 

But, this is not the thing I wanted to highlight.

Just that I had too much of secrets which I could not shared.

Just that I had too much of walls instead of bridge

 in terms of connecting with peoples. 

I felt I'm like an alien, abnormal in the eye of society. 

I'm lonely and I'm hidden. Nobody is going to recognize me.

I couldn't express the real me and it's going to makes me suffocate.

I have thought before to meet psychologist to solve my problem.

But I knew that, even I meet the psychologist, 

if I do not open my inner self, nobody could help me. 

I knew that I had rely too much on friends, the one I love. 

Because I could not afford to live my life alone. 

I'm afraid. 

I wish my friend could help me to solve my fear. 

I wish I could open up my heart. 

First Post in 2012

The time flies~~

I just realized that I didn't update my blog for months!
And this is the first post of the year..
I know I'm kinda late >_<

By the way, the important point is..
BLOG CLEANING!!

** Clean up the spider web.. Tsk Tsk **
** Mop and sweep the blog **
** BLINK BLINK **
**SETTLE!!**

Well about me, since after my birthday last year..

I have changed myself to Rihanna, then back to my ownself.

Coz "Good Girl Gone Bad" mah.. Then become good girl again.

LOL, I know its a very lame joke =X

But, I will keep this blog updated..

maybe once in a month?

it's still under consideration lah..

Wish you all the best

and have a nice day =)

Ciaoz

Pictures and updates!

As promised.. the pictures of Press Conference and

Star Cruise were uploaded..

But not that much,

coz when I upload I just found that..

there's quite a number of junk photo that I took!!

I filter it like hell seriously *_*

The woman above is an indonesian maid

that worked in Malaysia

for about 10 years++..

I think she is the first time abroad to Star Cruise.

Why do I say so?

Coz..

When I take photo she keep screaming nonstop!!

She worry that she would fall off from the cruise >_<

Basically this is how the center of the cruise look like..

The photo quality abit cha la..

Actual one look nicer. Trust me.

Siao char bo face in cruise..
WAHAHAHAHA

Seriously, I do love this picture.

Even Ajib also don't have red carpet to walk during his tour to UK =)

Ginger, as the emcee of the press conference.

The women with the specs and blazer is

KDU College (Penang) punya head..

one of the photographer.. I don't know his name.

Sorry >_<

That's all for pictures..

Lazy upload so many haha

If wanted to know more about Cruise and Youth Jam,

go for Google Search.

Updates :

- know a bunch of new and great friends.

- just finished an Amazing Race contest at uni.

- assignment a lot like hell.

- I enjoyed my uni life ^~^

- I'm currently an iphone user =X

AND LASTLY..

- my birthday is coming.

READY UR PRESENT BABE!!

Hmm..

I wish to watch Kungfu Panda 2..

But nobody want to watch with me..

This movie seem so nice as I had watched the previous one.

What to do?

I'm just a loner.

Exam result

Exam result had released..

Thank god that I never failed any subject..

Even so, I'm still not satisfy with my result..

I wish that I can get better result..

Sometimes, I questioned myself..

Am I able to be a successful people one day?

Before this, I believe in myself that I can do it, I said yes.

But now, I don't think the same way..

I need to work harder to achieve what I want..

At least, I wish able to work in one of the MNC company..

People should always dream big for achieve something

shouldn't I?

Will work more harder on next semester..

I still have 2 years time to improve..

Gambateh!

Back

Hello everybody!!

I'm just back from Penang!

Once I'm back,

I on my laptop..

Connecting to Facebook..

Then I saw this..

Hahahaha

TADAAA!!!

My face in The Star Metro (Penang) newspaper~

You may see it here at online version for the full story:

http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=%2F2011%2F5%2F23%2Fnorth%2F8733062&sec=north

Actually my face only occupied very small space..

Coz I'm standing far far away >_<

But very happy mah..1st time in newspaper..

Sorry for being a sakai hahaha

About the Penang Star Cruise trip..

I had stayed in Superstar Libra Cruise..

The trip is consider enjoyable lah..

As I'm just pay RM50 (admin fee) for 2 times buffet XD

Actually I have to pay more, but thanks to Yen Pin and her mom..

I don't need to do so :D

Thank you very much ya..

I have went into casino,

played bingo and even slept in the cruise (sounds like bullshiting)

Anyway, pictures are going to be uploaded soon~

(Including the pictures for press conference)

Please be patient.. I'm still looking for a card reader

to read the camera memory card >_<

Free =)

From the title, it doesn't mean to be free gifts..

It just about me to being free from busy life ^^

Yeah, I have already finished my exam last week..

And because of laziness, now I'm only writing my blog..

I had passed my undang test and my amali~

Now, I'm in the progress of learning..

Hopefully I'm able to get a P license at July..

Next weekend, I'm going to proceed my life to Youth Jam meeting..

Then, going to Penang Cruise as my friend had a free room XD

I'm so freaking excited coz I never been there before!

I wish that is an enjoyable trip =)

Back to Kampar..

During this semester of study, I had some problems with my group mate.

However, I don't think I could do any changes with the situation.

Therefore, I chose to leave them and find a new friend to mix with.

Wish them luck and happy anyway.

Yeah, at the same time

I also had get a chance to design KT management brochure

IF, I say IF...

IF I manage to make them to use my design,

then my resume definitely look nicer when it comes to internship ^^

I will try my best to do it..

Lastly, I will update my mixpod song asap..

Sorry for late update and have a nice day :D

Thanks for viewing my blog

March 2011

Just to update you all what I've been doing recently.

- I have listened to 5 hours UNDANG theory for the sake of
getting a car license in Ipoh

- Preparing for the midterm exam and upcoming final exam

- Getting stress up with the assignment keep rejected by our
lovely UTAR Lecturers

- Suspecting myself for having depression
( one of the psychological illness )

- Becoming an emotional eater due to the stress
*means I'm gaining my weight once again*

- Joining Youth Jam'11 at Penang as a volunteer..in order to
relieve my stress as well as get some fun. If you're interested..
Please log onto http://www.penangyouths.com/

- Going to move out from my current hostel as the owner
wants his/her house back from the management.

- Still thinking whether to become a volunteer for
World Vision Organization or not..

I think that's all for this post lar~
I will update the blog from time to time.

Everything started...

Okay, well..everything should be settled down..
All holidays are passed, so I should keep those mood and get back to my studies.
Starting this week onwards, I will be kinda busy..
So, I'm here to apologize that I couldn't update my blog frequently.
However, I will try my best to do that..

If you had free time,
please kindly watch A Time To Embrace, Episode 22
at www.tonton.com.my
as I'm inside the TV ^^

You don't have to wait long,
I will appear right after the theme song
and you will recognize me wahahaha
*Kinda excited since I know it last night*

Oh ya, not forget to tell you guys.
I had celebrated my friend birthday last week..
Pictures will be updated soon.

Stay tune ^^

Gloomy CNY

Once ago, there's a story about Billie Holiday's song.
I don't know whether it's true.
But, today incident..really reminds me that song.

One of the Billie Holiday song, Gloomy Sunday.
There's a rumor which says that
"whenever who listen to this song, they will suicide on next day"
The reason of people suicide is because of the lyric..
The lyric of this song full of depression with sorrowful music..

3.02.2011
is the first day of Chinese New Year..

But for me,
it is the saddest CNY ever.
My aunt, cousin, grandma and even my mum cried.

My uncle had just pass away this morning.
Thanks for the heart disease.

He left his family silently,
2am he is still awake and praying for Fortune God.
However, around 7 to 8am he already went to heaven.
May he rest in peace.

We will always remember you.
And people, please cherish your life.

Life is not easy..
You may find your life is meaningless
you may find your life is full of disappointment
but please do not give up your life

There's lot of people who are
love you
support you
motivate you
cherish you

Remember that.

Hello February 2011 :D

Today's date in 1st of Feb 2011,
which also a Federal Holiday for KL State resident =)

For those who are going back to their hometown for CNY,
wish you drive carefully and reach your destination safely.

For those who are not celebrating CNY,
enjoy your holiday and take a good rest before going back to work/study.

Anyway, just to update few things about me recently :

i) I've bought YES 4G Dongle to use, which cost me for RM99.
However, YTL Communication will rebate me RM10 for 10 months,
therefore.. the dongle is free.. and because my university (UTAR)
had Education Partnership Program (EPP) with YTL,
I have another extra RM9 for FREE until I graduated..
It's sounds too good to be true.. Yea, I admit..
But, if you seriously looked at the usage payment and plan..
YES 4G actually is not cheap.
If you want to know more about YES 4G and EPP,
you are the most welcome to leave a message at my chat box.
I will reply you guys as soon as possible.

ii) As I worked as part time promoter during last weekend,
I can tell you that,
PLEASE DON'T GO TO SHOPPING DURING CNY
It's too many people and too many promoters.
Prices also gone up due to CNY. Maybe some got offer la..
Yea. It causes traffic jam too, even taxi drivers also don't dare to go shopping.
Some uncle said :
"I'm celebrating CNY, therefore I coming here to buy things,
but other who don't celebrate also come here, I feel kinda pass out"
LOL

iii) Still, my life as a student..
What thing to be worried? "Assignment" loh..
I was going to National Library to find some information,
but it was closed once I reach there =.=
Full of disappointment though..

iv) For CNY Reunion Dinner,
who wants to eat roast duck for that night?
Welcome to my father's stall =D
Located near Cheras Leisure Mall..
No booking, so walk-in please..
(Non-halal)

That's all for this post.
Wish you all had a prosperous Chinese New Year.
If got extra angpao, I don't mind to get it :D

End of sem break =(

I'm hereby to announce that :
"My semester break had finally ended"

Tomorrow I'm going back to Kampar once again.
I kinda feel agitated with it. Why?

Firstly, my room there no air cond =.=
(I've already used with air cond during this 3 weeks..)

Second, I'm going to be very busy AGAIN for assignment.
( UTAR is too stressing their students when its coming to assignment )

Thirdly, I've clean up my room again..
Because I leave it for 3 weeks, I think there's another big spider web
Oh my goodness!! Think also feel tired already..

Besides that, I've taken job for weekends =D
To earn some pocket money la of course.

I might not be able to update my blog on time...
>.< Sorry peeps!
I will try my best to update all the time lah~

Lunar New Year Song

Lunar New Year a.k.a Chinese New Year
is just around the corner ^^

This year, 8TV had brought to us a lot CNY Songs~
Which I think is quite nice to be listen :D

I've already update my mixpod song list.
Enjoy =)

New Year Post

A-H-A! It's 2011..

Goodbye to 2010 and welcome 2011..
Sorry for late posting, coz I'm still in holiday..
It's kinda lazy for me to update my blog :X

Anyway, I've good time for new year eve ^^
Like usual, pictures time!!
*I was thinking to add video at my post, is this ok?
Please reply at chatbox, do not comment..
Coz I rarely read my comment..

Obviously, through the picture..
I went to Sunway Pyramid, Sunway Giza, Mid Valley and Fahrenheit 88
Fahrenheit 88 got nothing to see! Not worth to go either..

I'm shopping throughout the new year..
And also because of Y.E.S (Year End Sales)
I've bought my new shirt for CNY from Giordano and ROMP..

Not forget to tell u that..
HUSH PUPPIES DISCOUNTS UP TO 60%

More pictures coming soon!
Stay tune :D
And Happy New Year to you~

Before Christmas ^^

Two weeks ago, after I finished my Tamil Language exam..
I have just took a part time job from a production team.

Yah..As an extra in a local chinese drama
A Time To Embrace
which will on air starting from 13 Jan 2011,
at 8.30pm only at 8TV ^^

It's actually not easy to act in a drama..
What you watch in TV around 15min, we've done it in 3 and more hours.
That day I was totally exhausted but somehow I enjoyed it
even though I worked start from 8am until 2am in the midnight..
The most important thing..

I saw HENLEY haha
but unfortunately, I was not allowed to disturb the artist..

Anyway..
As usual, pictures do the talking with some brief description..

All the crews are busy doing their job..

Elvis Chin had to roll down from a small hill..
If I'm not mistaken he rolled more than 5 times..
(please forgive my broken english)

Crews were resting in the middle of shooting..

One of the extra haha
Nice police costume ^^

Fake funeral..
Just made it from polystyrene haha

Another 2 guy..haha

Lastly, me ^^
Maybe you can see my backside when you watching the drama
LOL

End of my post today~
I wish you all had a merry x'mas and happy new year on 2011
Thanks for reading ^^

It's December!!

As I said IT'S DECEMBER!!

means..

CHRISTMAS IS COMING SOON!!!!!Did you prepared for your big Turkey dinner?
Did you decorate your house?
Did you ever plan to countdown for the Christmas during its eve?

Be prepared for everything and

GET READY FOR CELEBRATION ON 25/12 !! WOOHOOO

Alviss Kong

Yesterday, 2am in the morning,
a young man was committed suicide..
Yes, his name is Alviss Kong.

He could not accept the truth that his lover no longer love him..
Thus, he jumped off at 14th floor building at
Cheras Ketumbar Height (which is quite near my KL house)
and certified dead after he was sent to hospital.

Before he committed suicide,
he leaved a note in facebook said how much he love his lover..
He also mentioned that the 4 months together with his lover
is the most happy period in his life.

His friend saw his note,
but they did not realized that he is going to suicide.
They thought the note just a love story..

After 45 minutes, he jumped off and ends his life.

Below is his facebook account,
you may read more about him and his last note here.
Hope he'll rest in peace..

http://www.facebook.com/alvissk/

Awal Muharam and the day before

Hey peeps! How did you all spent your time on Awal Muharam?

Shopping? Just relax at home? Or even busy with household chores?
I'm just play around my house kitchen that day :D
But the outcome (fried rice) not bad lo!!
I'm not purposely want to praise myself though HAHA

Anyway, the day before that..
There is my cousin birthday celebration party..
As usual, picture speaks thousand word.
So, let's the pictures do the talking..

The food served...Jelly a.k.a Konyaku
Satay
Ice Kacang/Ais Batu Campur (ABC)
Lastly cake :D
So cute right???

More pictures are coming!
Stay tune :D

Boobs Grabbing.

I had saw something from my so-called "friend" geh blog..
(Actually I'm not so close with him la,even same secondary school)
What ever la. HAHA

I felt so funny when I looked at this.
So, I decided to share it with you guys XDD

General Purpose : To Inform

Specific Purpose : To inform my blog readers about some boobs grabbing during photoshoot.

Central Idea : JUST SOME BOOBS GRABBING..!
( Credits to Kentzai )

So girls, next time go paktoh with your boyfriend..
you want let him pinch your breast is okay la..
but careful abit XDDD

I believed all the guy wanna try dis!! HAHA

Just simply emo

Emo-ing.
What ever.